Oh the Times They Are a Changin (author notes)

I'm sorry for the lack of updates. I've been having so much to do with class and some family stuff and I just got back from visiting my sister in New York. So I know I haven't been here in so long. So sometimes I might be posting more or I might be posting less. This is just a short post to let you know why it seems like I've dissapeared off of the face of the Earth. xD So yeah my apologies to all you readers. I will check back on your blogs as soon as I get this post up and than I'll be on my way.

'Til Who Knows When
Meredith's Author

Tonight

I finally got a romantic night with Derek.
After all this time... together again.
The dinner was a bit dull.
After ward was what made me nervous.

"Can I.... ya know...." Derek studdered.
"Spend the night?" I asked rising an eyebrow.
He blushed. I nodded slightly.
I knew it was okay because George and Tash were on a mission.

After watching a movie I got sleepy and lay in bed while Derek was in the bathroom. I pulled off my high-heels slowly along with my accesories.
Derek entered crawling under the covers next to me.
I lay on top of Derek kissing his lips.
He wrapped his arms around me kissing me again.

Before I knew it my dress was off. And I was drunk.
I pulled away from him since he was kissing my kneck.
"Are you sure this is okay?" I asked.
All he did was nod and proceed.
I gave in and began making out with him along with... ya know.

I had only made love once... it was never like this. I ignored my haunting thoughts and pressed my lips against his, refusing to let go.

I was finally asleep.

To Be Continued...

Starting Over

I heard Christina.
"What? Meredith your brain works! All you have to do is form a word!!!!" She yelled.
"Ouch..." I moaned.
I finally opened my eyes. Christina's face lit.
"MEREDITH! I'm going to be Master! I know that should be the least of your worries right now." She said.
That's Christina for ya.

Then I got a visit from Tash & George.

I took a nap.
I awoke to Derek.
"Hey." I whispered.
"Hey." He responded.

The two of us talked like a couple again. The only difference was that his ex-wife Addison Sheperd was sitting out in the hallway with Mark Sloan.

My heart was beating and I was alive again.

The End

I Don't...

I wake up to a light. Am I dead? Tash's Uncle Denny who was like a second father to her stood next to me, Dylan a bombsquad Jedi who exploaded in a shooting to save my life.
"I must be dreaming." I whispered.
"Damn right you are." Denny said.
"Denny?" I questioned. I turned my head. "Dylan?" I nodded to myself. "Oh yeah I must be dreaming!"

This all took place in the temple.
"Where am I?" I asked for the fourth time.
Denny stopped me against the wall. "Meredith! You are stuck in between life and death! You could die! You have to get out of here on your own!" He shouted.
I sat kriss-cross on the floor. "Listen. I fought, and I fought hard. But, than I thought, 'what's really the point?' You don't understand. This isn't my responsibility. You have to he-
Denny interupted me. "BUT YOU GAVE UP! You're choosing not to get out of here." He shouted.
I got up. "I don't want to!" I growled. I walked down the hall.
A blonde girl walked around confused.
"Bonnie?" I said with a gasp.
Bonnie was a teenage girl who I tried to save on a mission who died stuck on a pole.
"Meredith! You are here for your own good. If you don't try to get out-
Denny than interrupted Dylan.
"YOU'LL CHANGE EVERYONE IN YOUR LIFE! What about Tash? You are one of her best friends. What about George? He cares about you more than you can imagine. What about Christina? She is your best friend. And Derek? Derek beleives in passion, romance and true love! And if you die? You are changing who he is..." Denny spat.

I saw my mother Ellis. "Mom?" I shouted.
She circled around me with an angry look. "You shouldn't be here!" She said.
I shook my head in desbelief. "Neither should you..."
I began walking away as she wrapped her arms around me.
"You are anything but ordinary." She whispered. That was exactly what I needed. We got in the biggest fight a few weeks ago.

I sat back in the corner.
"I'm trying I swear I am going to focus." I said in a serious tone.
Suddenly the temple's old dog, Doc ran up to me barking.
"Doc!" I said beginning to pet him. "Who's a good boy who's a good boy you are!" I said in a babyish behavior.
"Meredith you almost died today!" Dylan told me.
I still pet Doc ignoring the two men. "Yeah that sucked." I said.

As I sat with Denny talking about what happened since his death he paused for a moment as a smile was being planted on his face.
"What is it?" I asked confused.
"Tash." He whispered.
"You can see her?" I asked.
He shook his head. "No. But, sometimes I feel like I'm there next to her, brushing against her skin. It's like I can feel her with me. Yet... she can't feel me." He whispered. "I think you're ready now Meredith."
I nodded to him getting up off the floor.

I began walking fast down the hall. There was a white light at the entrance. I stepped right into it as my world whited out.

To be continued...

Help You Can Regret

A little blond girl with braids stood alone crying as I helped a women.
"Is this your Mommy?" I asked.
She shook her head to me. The left leg of her pants were wet.
"Did you wet your pants that's okay it happens sometimes." I said.
As my ex-secret boyfriend Derek gestured for me to follow him.
"Stay right here okay?" I said to the little girl.
"Noo!" She cried grabbing my arm tight. I didn't know what to do. A little girl or a Derek? I had the little girl follow me.
"Is she okay?" Derek asked.
I nodded. "Yeah she's just lost." I said. The girl stared at Derek and I confused. I noticed a black man come up from out of the water with a bleeding leg.

"Sir, I need you to stay still." I said holding the man's leg.
"Ow..." He moaned. I couldn't stop the bleeding.
"I need you to be my helper okay?" I said to the girl. She nodded.
"I need you to go get a nurse and tell her to give you a pack of bandaids like the ones in my kit right there." I said. She walked off with a blank stare.

I tried to help the man more.
"God I can't take it!" The man pushed me of the edge as I collapsed into the water.

To be continued...

Confusion Hurts

I sat in between George and Tash holding my breath. All we knew was that there were multiple tramas from the clone wars. The speeder door finally opened. I closed my eyes after 30 seconds of looking at the people devistated. This just couldn't happen right now. To me...
To be continued...

First Night Isn't Always the Greatest

Well, Tash came home two nights ago with a kitten. She got a kitten. George fell in love with him and I just thought he was kinda cute. He's been stalking me while I'm trying to unpack.

The little black and white kitten looked up at me meowing.
"What?" I asked still going through my box. Starz turned his head away acting like he didn't hear me. I kept on digging through my box looking for my TV remote. He looked up at me again.
"What?" I asked once more. Starz turned his head away again. I rolled my eyes ignoring him. He meowed again.
"What!?" I asked him for the tenth time. George and Tash walked into the room at that time and began trying to hold in their laughter.
"You do know you're talking to a kitten right?" George asked. Tash burst out laughing holding on to George's shoulder trying not to fall. I threw the remote at the two jedi knights feet.

...

At the end of the day I said what I was dying to say.
"I can see that today has been pretty ruff on us all. Do you guys want to go get a drink or something?" I asked.
Tash turned the TV off looking at me than at George. They both nodded.
"Sure."

I got drunk. I woke up the next morning confused to find Tash and George hovering over me.
"Wha 'appened?" I asked. George smiled.
"You passed out at the bar and I had to carry you up the stairs." He told me.
I didn't know what happened last night except I just knew that I was drunk. I hadn't drank in weeks.
Weird...
Well, now I've learned my lesson. When, you get used to something new... don't go out to a bar.